I'm still struggling with that fear because I want to live a creative life. I've been told I'm creative. That I'm a good writer. But, often the insecurities reach out and grab hold of my ankles, pulling me back down into the blackness. My dream is to make something out of this blog... maybe a book. I have recently discovered 2 artists - Jenny Lawson and Jen Lancaster. Lancaster has numerous books out - stories about her life. Lawson has her first book coming out. They both have blogs. I haven't read Lancaster's as much as I've read Lawson's, but both are funny... As funny as I hope I am.
I'm currently reading a book called The Artist's Way (which is where I got the quote that I started this post with) by Julia Cameron. It's a great book. It's telling me that I need to get rid of the self-doubt and just do it. Hell, the fact that I'm even doing this blog and staying with it shows that I'm starting to believe in myself... or at least that I don't give a damn what others thing (please like me).
I read some of the blogs out there and I think, "man, that is so interesting! Unlike my life, which isn't." But, when I step back and look at the random things that happen to me in a given day - conversations with Jason, with Melissa, me harassing my freaking zoo, there's some pretty shit there. I just need to learn to share it with the world. Because, seriously- ya'll need to know how crazy my life is.
Now if I can just learn to shut up that negative voice that keeps popping up ("your life is boring, your writing isn't good, blah, blah, blah..."), I think I'll be fine.