My dilemma

Last Wednesday, Jason and I went to a spin class at the YMCA. Before class started the instructor, Melissa (not to be confused with my best friend of the same name), came up to me and said that some of the other instructors had been talking about me recently. Oh boy, what had I done now?

There's a dance class at the Y called Sh'Bam. While the actual Sh'Bam class has been around for a good bit, it's still fairly new to our gym (they just picked up the class in late February). Loving to dance and having no shame, I dove head first into this class. I took dance lessons for many years as a kid and I miss those. It's so hard to find dance classes (at an actual dance studio) for adults around here. This class fulfills my need to shake my moneymaker for all it's worth. My Zumba class did it too, but due to a change in my schedule, I haven't been able to make it to that in forever.

So, why were the instructors talking about me? They are looking to hire some new teachers for this class and they thought of ME! Whaaaa? Really?!?! When Melissa told me this, I was shocked and honored, but I didn't know how serious they were.

Since my brief talk with Melissa, I've been approached by two other instructors saying they think I'd be awesome and I should do it. Did I mention that I'm so honored that they thought of me?

I am leaning toward doing it. Just going for it. Why not? But, I'm faced with some barriers.  As outgoing as I am, I do still battle with self esteem and self doubt issues. My inital reaction when the instructors have talked to me about this is "Yes, sign me up." But, right on the heels of that is "Oh shit. I can't do this. I'm going to be completely off beat and forget the moves and... just look like a big ol' douchebag."

In addition to those fears is the question of "how do I fit this into my schedule?" I'm already so busy with my life in general - between my workout schedule, trying (and failing) to stay on top of reading blogs I like and writing my own (how long has it been since my last post???), and giving myself down time. I'm not one of those people who can gogogogo all the time. I can go for a bit, then I lose steam and want to just sit on my arse with a good book or my TV. I don't know how to balance everything. Sh'Bam is a class that's through a group program called Les Mills. This means you have to go through 2 days of training to get on the path to certification. Then if you pass that ass kicker, you have send in a video tape of you teaching a class. Then, after you become a certified instructor, every few months you have to learn a new set of songs/dances to teach the class. I have no idea how many hours go into those training sessions. Obviously the instructor has to know the new moves before they can release it to the class.

Jason's words of encouragement are to not make a decision now, but to get with the person in charge of setting up the training to discuss everything - how often would they want me to teach, what kind of compensation would I receive, will the Y pay for my training, etc,etc. Just get the facts and then figure out if I want to do it. The issue is - I'm on a deadline to figure this out. The certification programs travel around the country. One is actually going to be in our area next week. So, I need to figure things out asap.

Any thoughts/words of advice/heckling from you guys???

Aaaaand... Take Two

Years ago, I tried starting a blog. I love to write and sometimes things happen in my life that I want to capture in a time capsule other than my memory.

But, my blog never went anywhere because of my self-confidence. Or lack of, actually. I would start thinking that I can't do a blog because my life really isn't that interesting, so where would I get fuel for said blog? But, sometimes my life really is that interesting... at least to me.

My husband often points out to me that I don't have to write every day. He's right. I don't. But, I'm scared that many months will go by between my postings, because... I'll be honest. I'm pretty damn lazy. Take for instance the quote and tradition journal my husband and I started in 2008. My husband and I have many inside jokes together. We have quite a few quips we zing back and forth that the general public wouldn't get. In 2008 we took an anniversary trip to Disney World. On that trip, we created so many more quotes and memories and I realized we should be capturing these moments. When we got home, we bought a notebook and proceeded to document those sayings and others that we commonly say. We also started putting down some of the traditions that we started - like when we paint, we always have to listen to the Shrek soundtrack. As I mentioned earlier, we started that journal in 2008. So, now - at the end of 2011 - we should have multiple journals filled, right? Right? Ummm, yeah, not so much. We haven't even really put a dent in this one. It's not because of lack of content. Oh no, we continually spout random things that crack us up and we immediately say "we need to put that in our notebook!!" But do we? Nope. I'm scared this blog will be the same way. Something I deem blog worthy will happen and I'll think "I need to get on the computer and jot that down!" and I won't.

But, ya know what... I don't think I care anymore. I'm going to start this thing and see what happens. Feel free to join me on this adventure.